llunattica

No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.
Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.
Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,
sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.

(Pablo Neruda)

missing my mom...
my Helena...

Rest In Peace
BIRTH June 18, 1955
DEATH June 22, 2008

excited : Happy New Year : dreams come true : want : February 2nd : future : Unesp : Architecture : Bauru : pray : freakin out : own bills : have fun ^^

3:59 AM - more than late to go sleep (but im still on my vacation (until Feb 2nd))!

Take care everybody, good morning hehe.

Welcome!!! (yeaah, im not normal...)

A verdade é que o herói tem medo.

This song is a forró (typical style from the northeast of Brasil), to dance with a partner, really close to the other person...

But the meaning of this song was to illustrate that the guy, who told me that was in love with me, this guy, has a hero-nickname... Considering all the story, understanding his admiration for the hero, the only thing that i could think was what the music says...

Has a fear of loving...

And i can't understand something like that, fall in love online? Com'on... Ok, its possible, i believe, it happened to me... But try to control the other person's life cause of jealous, instead of enjoying the virtual company?

The truth is that the hero has fears.

I can also accept that heroes have their fears, doesn't matter what fears they could have... Acctually, i won't accept my hero to be afraid of cockroachs!

Ok, ok... i know... im talking, talking, talking... i can type for HOURS! Talk as well... hehe...

The thing is that the guy said that was in love, he told me he would protect me and bla bla blá... i don't know why i just don't give up on him, i mean on this crazy idea of being in love, jealousy...

Oh, dear...

I wish i could stop him of bothering, but i can't help it! I just can't forget him... It can't be love, cause he scaries me.
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I dont understand myself sometimes, you know? I already have a blog --to take care and maintain with my creative ideas, posts and stuff--, i trully don't believe im creative enough to maintain two pages (one being a podcast)... But i'll try, haha... I'm gonna use this to practice my english (ooohhh, LORD!!! hope you survive!)!!!

I'd better go now... 3:18am...

Feel free to comment this crazy (???) episode, or not... I'm still shy, let's see if i'll come to sing someday, hahaha!!! Can you imagine that?

At least, i hope you enjoy.

Takecare.